I am always amazed at how fast time slips past us. We get up early to get more done in the day and before you know it it is afternoon and everything you had planned to get done is not finished yet. I catch myself working away on the computor and I look up and it is dark. What hapened? When I sat down it was light. Where did my time go I wonder. I replay the day and try to figure out how it all slipped away and I cannot see where it went.
People of all ages have great aspirations of getting something accomplished in a set amount of time and when it doesn't transpire it is frustrating and aggrivating. Before you know it you have gone from 18 to 22 and you think, OK I still have time I am young. Next thing you know your 30 and you wonder what did I do, what have I accomplished. Pretty soon your 43, watching your kids reach their benchmarks reaching for more goals of growth and learning. You think to yourself, wow I really wanted to have this done by now where did my time go. And it doesn't matter what that thing was you wanted to have done you just know it isn't. Time, flying past my eyes with wings of fury flying so fast I can hardly see. I know that pretty soon time will be over for me and time will continue to march for my kids as tehy chase their own time machine.
I've always used time as my tool-by 21 I will do this, by 25 this and so on. Now it's by my birthday I will be in better shape. I find my self planning for retirnmnent and now I find I can't say someday I'll have children. I was informed that I need to either have kids by 35 or possibly not bother. I'm 27 so this seems odd for me, I don't feel the clock ticking. I still see myself as a mother sometime in the future, but I just don't know when that time will be-either way 35 will come before I know it.
ReplyDeleteI Know! Where does the time go??? Last time I noticed I was 25, 32, and in a couple of months will be 40! Sometimes I feel like I'm still just an insecure 14 year old, but everyone's (my kids, co-workers, friends)looking at me to be in charge!
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ReplyDeleteDon't feel like your clock is running out on kids, I had mine at 37. She is wonderful. It does tend to get harder though and I tried to have another last year at 42. That didn't happen so well, and we lost the baby. I believe life gives you want you need so maybe I wasn't ready for another go around at motherhood. I has definetly made me take another look at if we really want to do it or be happy where we are.
I think about retirement and see how that is going to pan out if I don't plan now. We have a senior graduating this year and off to college she goes. Talk about expensive, thank god I go to LCSC, the price comparison is unreal. So when our 7 year old is ready for college in another 11 years I ask myself do I want to have another graduation in another 18-19 years when I am 61. Woudl I be able to afford to retire and take care of myself so my kids don't have to. I don't know, I guess god will figure that one out for me. Just know there is no perfect time, kids help you make the time.
Jen,
ReplyDeleteWhen is your birthday, the big 40. Wow, you will love it, it really is no different. DO you remeber when yo uwere in your twenties and 40 was old to you? I remember saying that someone was old when they were 35. NOw i know better, I laugh when my daughters say it. I look at them and say someday a long time from now you will understand how untrue that is.